Title>Still Waters Run Deep: Happy Valentines Day!!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Happy Valentines Day!!

Happy Valentine’s Day FANS!!
I’m sure it’s the coldest day of the year today so far, which is ironic as its Valentines Day; at least when it rains it’s pretty warm but today it’s just plain freezing. Coco actually decided not to go exploring today. That is very unlike him. The fire is very cozy though.

Since I’ve been on my own, Valentine’s Day is kinda like Christmas, just another day. I do enjoy seeing other people happy and in love though and I have such nice memories of Valentine’s days gone by. My boyfriend always bought me a dozen red roses, even when he was inside, he somehow managed to have flowers sent, he never forgot. I miss him so much some times….other times I am just angry at him for abandoning me and the life we planned to create together.

It’s funny, browsing on the internet today how love, passion and sex are so important to us as human beings. An article today said that the responses in our brains when it comes to love are the same as those experienced when we think about money or chocolate – sounds much safer to me. What did surprise me though was that everyone who considered themselves to be in love also said that they would gladly die for their loved one if it came down to a choice between them. We are so self-sacrificing when it comes to being in love and yet relationships can be so difficult and damaging.

I must admit that I would have sacrificed anything for Bob; I really would have done anything for him, and did. He was always very clear about what he wanted from a relationship and a woman; he said I was his idea of perfection, partly because I have a nice body and I dress in ways that always pleased him. He loved it when I showed off my body and acted sexy! I was always happy to oblige :-).

He was the perfect man to me. He never betrayed me, and was always so kind and generous. I always made sure that he knew that everything I had was his too, because he didn’t have much of his own, but yet he was so giving in so many ways. He would make donations to charities or help out the homeless people, he always remembered his family’s birthdays and would send a card and he always wrote back to me straight away when he was unable to be with me, and always said thank you for the money I sent. He also always remembered everyone’s birthdays etc., despite the judgments his family made of him.

I don’t think there are many people out there like him, he made mistakes and yet he never allowed himself to act bitter or regretful, he always stayed optimistic and happy too. He learned from his mistakes and forgave himself for his wrongs. He said it was because he felt that I was his safe haven, his refuge from the outside world. I only wish he could have trusted me more. He always said that, no matter where he was, what he was doing, or who he was with, he was always thinking about coming home to me. He really was one in a million and I will never really get over him, and probably never find anyone like him again either. I hate VALENTINES day!

Anyway, enough wallowing! I should get out for a run while it’s still light; it gets dark so early at this time of year.


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