Title>Still Waters Run Deep: July 2006

Friday, July 28, 2006

Wow! I am so saddened today by what I saw on TV last night. I was watching a special on Andrea Yates the woman from the states who killed all 5 of her children. I am so sad for her and how the system let her down. She already had four of her five children when her Dr. recommended that she not have any more. His rational for this recommendation was based on the fact that she already had severe post par dome, a condition that worsens with each bout. She got pregnant a fifth time, I presume this was because she is Mormon and likely not allowed to use birth control, and once again became inflicted with post par dome on an even more extreme level than in the past. The Physicians and Psychiatrist she was seeing at the time told her family not to let her be alone with her children as she may harm them, yet they still left her alone. She admitted to hearing voices and having violent thoughts, yet her family left her alone with her children for over an hour. Andrea Yates states she believed she had to “save” children from damnation, and therefore needed to send their soles to heaven. She truly loved her children and despite the fact that she knew she would miss them terribly she killed them. Not violently or disrespectfully, but in the most peaceful manner she knew how. I know this is a terrible and tragic set of events, but I believe the system let her down. If our hospitals weren’t so over crowded and understaffed, she never would have even been at home to care for her children, she would have been kept safe from harming herself or anyone else, and received the care she so obviously and desperately needed. I blame the government for the deaths of her children.
Now poor Andrea Yates who has finally been allowed access to proper treatment and care, lives in horror of what she has done to her family; a family that she obviously loved whole heartedly. The better she gets, the more aware she is of what a terrible thing it was she did. That must be a horrible existence; I wonder if her husband is still standing by her. He too must share in the responsibility of her actions.
Wow my run should be great today. I obviously have a lot of steam to blow off! In other news I was very surprised to hear from Dale, the fellow I met in Prince George. I think he is just lonely. I don’t mind being his friend, but I had to tell him again that I am not interested in a relationship with him. Our differences are just too great. He seemed to get the message this time. I don’t think he will be calling again!

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Well the situation in Lebanon is going from bad to worse by the look of things, that war seems so senseless to me. Another Canadian soldier’s body was brought back to Canada from Afghanistan today, speaking of senseless wars, you know if everyone just kept themselves to themselves and minded their own business the world would be a much better place.

I was also reading in the news that the Canadian Judicial system wants to change the rules about convicted murders being automatically eligible for parole after serving 25 years and I’m not really sure what I think about that. I think that it depends on the crime I guess and the criminal history of the prisoner but my initial reaction is, if they’ve served 25 years they’re probably not going to be a threat anymore although there is always the problem then of reintegrating someone back into society after that length of time. Bob had served a fairly lengthy sentence and he found it impossible to lead a normal life when he came out of jail. He couldn’t get work, and it seemed the only way he knew how to make money was through crime at least on some level. All his friends and contacts were people he knew from prison so he never really stood a chance. We were just trying to get his name changed when he quit on me.

Although he was a good person and I never doubted that he wanted to leave his past behind, the authorities wouldn’t let him. Even though on the surface they were nice to him, he was always being persecuted (checked and judged) wherever he went which is why we decided to move to a really remote place and keep ourselves private. I don’t regret that at all, I would have done anything for him and I never considered any other alternative. I believe that if you love someone it has to be unconditional and you have to do what needs to be done to keep the relationship going and make the other person happy.

I really do hope that I can meet someone who has the same morals and ideals as I do and who isn’t going to judge me over my past. Some days I’m more optimistic than others but I do still believe that there is someone out there who would like to be with an attractive, self-sufficient woman who has a lot to offer and doesn’t ask too much in return.